heyhey, im so very sry abt yest, baby.
i promise i wont do it again. im not obsessed with him. and i will not be. he's outta my mind. period.
heyzz, my stomach's still cramping and im still having fever.
but its worth while :)
i feel so dumb after ur pek cek session of teaching me abt depreciation. I FEEL UR PAIN.
I PROMISE UR EFFFORTSSS WONT GO TO WASTE. I WILL SCORE WELL FER MY UPCOMING POA TEST.
* crosses finger, i hope :D
i dont wna step into ITE I SWEAR. ( yes, im judgmental, wdv. no offense though :) )
IM WAITING FOR AFTER N'S . HOHO. PARTY TILL WE DROP OKEH.
im gna miss u though, a week ltr u'll be gone to do stupid stuffs and ditch me alr ):
come back soon la. ok okokokokookk?
did ya love the muttons? :)
HAHARRRR.
I'LL CALL U SOON. XOXO.

24 jan:
baby, this one's fer you. Firstly, ive just finished my dinner and im fucking full, omg. we shld totally dine at this italian restaurant where the choco cake is HEAVENLY !!!
secondly, i rly hoped u felt better after our htht just now :)
thirdly, i dont wish to burden you any more. stop spoiling me and getting me stuffs alr. AND RANDOMLY DRAGGING ME OUT FOR SHOPPING SESSIONS IN THE MIDDLE OF TH SCHOOL WEEK.
forthly, my mum scolded me for bringing ur sexy jacket home ):
hmm, im still at clark quay right now, the place is rly pretty at night.
my mum made a deal with me leh, if i help her in ______, she'll let me club after my N's.
u muusssst wait fer me !

*psssss. i love u as well alicia. i din forget u :)

Alan kwa, I want our photos this instance! U faggot, I hate u so much. Let's watch PURSE of happiness cos that's our fav movie. And I love felaries not ferraris. Must get me one nxt time ok? I'm not gg to ur place at 10 am in th morning hor boss. I rly hate u. I haven't finished telling u abt my bad dream abt tht china lady yet ): and u btr stop telling me things about him, bcuz I don't wanna know abt him. Thanks. eh, in very hungry now, I want to go Ecp for sotong and rice. My head hurts cos I'm veh hungry now. Don't call me fat lei. I'm not fat. I'm not fat. U are fat. Byebye! :)

im glad everything's alright now :)

yest, braided hair ! ah gua loved it, tht makes me happy. heee.

though i still preferred alicia's braids, omg. her braids were what i expected to have on me. but sadly, it somehow screwed up ><

but, its still alright la.

i found michelle's hair the most hardcore. she looks like some biker chick. HAHA. FIERCE AHHH.

alicia's were pretty too :)

tday, im contemplating hitting the gym at alicia's place.

i dont like the public one, so many ppl ):

waiting for vacant threadmills takes ages ><

fuccck, sch's gna reopen like very soon and ive not started on any shitty studies.

but thank goodness thr's some naggy person who keeps pushing me to :)

SOOON SOOON. ive started reading on my chinese alr ok.

this sun ! party at st james.

though it doesnt sounds fun ( fashion shows? gigs? fleas? )

eeek. but, heard thr's many ppl gg.

go? dont go? dont go ><

next weeeek's xmas ! omg :)

wonder how imma celebrate it. i dont think i can meet ah gua ):

i wna party during new year's eve ! my sweethearts btr make themselves free !

haha.

i thought i might upload our photos here, but apperently u deleted our photos and ure behaving lika jerk.

thought by uploading th pics, i cld clear th doubts of 'passerbys'

ya, gavin's outta my life. and i like someone else. but some ppl just wont fucking shut their mouths and likes to bitch about me and my new guy.

claiming im despo and cheap. OMFG. URE JEALOUS.

i regretted hugging gav AS A FREN. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT WAS GG THROUGH UR MIND. ITS JUST A FUCKING HUG. DONT NEEDA MAKE A BIG FUSS

OUTTA IT. I ALR APOLOGIZED OKEH.

i said i'll prove to you tht i can behave.

I DONT HAVE FEELINGS FOR GAVIN ALR. GEDDIT?

ok, maybe u dont care. ya ya, it just proves tht ure a jerk.

but i cant believe i fell for this jerk. thanks alot.

bowlingggg ! wed, 28 oct. ( as well as our 2yr 1 mth ):   )

well, its was super cool thr , especially when th ' glow-in-the-dark' mode came :)

lololol. had fun tryna win all of my frens so i can get free lunchie :)

lololololololl.

xoxo. sweeetdreamzzz.

BACK.

& spending this night alone at home, with the great weather and serenity :)

( WELL, NOT FOR LONG. WAIT TILL MY MUM GETS BACK ! >< )

well, at least  i have some time  to think back and reflect.

these few days and weeks have been hell fer me.

i finally know how someone special to me, feels like when im right now put in a position tht i once had put him in.

it sucks so badly.

KARMA.

tonight,  i feel lonely at the same time.

everyone has plans and everyone has a life this night.

partying, dating, having fun.

my sweetheart's not with me tonight once again.

the weather is so perfect tonight (:

it kinda reminds me of christmas every year.

especially last year's. its just so vivd in my mind.

i love the sweet sweeet past :)

ok im getting so random. jumping from topic to topic.

now back to halloween.

i cant wait to dress up in my dream halloween costume a few years ltr ;)

haha.

been bragging fer a long time.

:)

ok, have fun everyone.

have fun on this great night.

p.s. gav, have fun at work (:

alicia, have fun with ur date (:

atasha, have fun with ur bf (:

shaz, have fun at butter fac (:

i dont wna be a brokenhearted girl like her ):

Well, so far, i can only remember the most memorable and beautiful thing last mth.

28 sep 2009.

my 2nd anni with gavin !

hehe, i was pretty impressed :)

<3

FREAAAKING CANDIDSSS (!)

& i look dam fat in th pics with my uniform like tht ):

im not fat okeh.

Basically, that Monday was memorable.

GAV URE SOOO NAUGHTY OK.

TRICK ME AHHH. U AND ATASHA AND SYED.

haha. nevertheless, i fell for it :)

It was bakerzin at T1 for lunch and dessert aftaa studyin in school .

( sweet surprises) (...) ( shhhh )

well, suprise/ cute face/ sweet/ yummy/ ..

He gave me a diary, and i will definitely write / update it on a DAILY basis :)

its so dear to me now.

Its a great company to me . I can finally pour out my feelings which are private and oh-so-candid,

without anyone's comments or thoughts :)

i know diaries exist for a very long time alr, but this diary is so darn special to me.

it magically gives me motivation to write it like everyday :)

so yea, i will be neglecting this blog. KINDA. maybe not .

but i will upload photos ! :)

ahhh,

ALSO, i know im freaking out-dated.

ive just started to read " P.S I LOVE YOU".

i feel so .... slow ):

but the story's so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet !

heeee. and very very addictive.

i can read like up to 8-10 chapters per day.

yezzz, its tht addictive :)

AND IT MAKES ME CRY ):

im super emotional la. haha.

Thurs, 1 october 2009.

i promise with all my heart.

it will be the last day i hurt you so darn badly.

i promise to forget those guys / crushes/ wdv it is.

i'll promise to forget HIM. YES HIM. ONCE AND FOR ALL.

IM ALSO SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE DRAMA.

but seriously, ily not them, for goodness sake.

dont silly alr can? :)

I only want to cherish you, and no one else <3

THANKYOU FOR FORGIVING ME. COS IF I WERE IN YR SHOES I WILL HATE U FOR LIFEEEE.

(HINTS *)

*drunk ass.

mizzzuloveumizzuloveu.

tmr shall be a happy day <333333